A State of mind.

Fall 2009 Semester....aaah yes here begins what might be the most difficult two semesters of anything. Why? Well lets just start with the obvious. The ensemble is gone, well not really but since almost all who I considered good guitarists left to either out of state or just out of ensemble, What we got in return was a few new freshman who seem to not have that same skill. But, Who am I to judge. I am afterall still a step below what I wanted to be by now. Taking math my first summer session was tough and pretty much left me little time to practice.(I dont like math to much but I am always pressured to pass so I studied my ass off for 6 weeks, and afterwords barely picked up my guitar but for maybe 2 hours every 2 days. I don't know why it happened, but it did and I just might pay for it these next few weeks. Now that everyone is pretty much gone, it is up to me to step up to the plate. Well I got some BIG ASS plates to step up to. Hii, my guitar professor is going to probably make me try out honors, something I know I'll fuck up on, be in a quartet, something i dont want to do, and set up a half spring recital...with no one else to do it with. So I'm left with to only deal with what I have at hand. Put on the gloves. and practice like I have never done so before.

I say I hate Corpus, that it sucks, the weather is bad, and the fact that there is nothing to do that most people get wasted and high at either the beach or thier own home....and thats all! But I'll admit one thing....It is better then Laredo (family on both sides live there but is hotter and lamer then corpus) One of my past guitar collegues has proven that you can be from corpus..go to a community college here, and still succeed by getting into a top music conservatory. Something that probably wont happen with any other guitarist...for a very very loooong time. I had my plans set in stone before I attended del mar that when I was done there...whether it took me 2 or 3 years...that I was going to get the fuck outta corpus. To my demise, my proffesor is against those things...not stopping me but annoyed hearing that. Of course I will stay if financies work against it, but even then I'll find someother way.

My lesson is scheduled friday at 11am to 12pm giving me a hour of practice before my lesson and after before solo lab or class. This is good...im going to need those hours.

As for my other classes. On mondays and wednsdays im in from 8am to 11am. tuesdays from 9:30 to 12, thursdays 9:30 to 2. and fridays 8to 2....ugh.

So I will put on the mask, forget all that has happened the last semester and continue foward to my goal. I wont let someone elses thoughts get in my way..even if they are from a proffesor.